After several months of asking myself what is missing in my life, I realized it was the absence of creating on my own terms. My medium for art has been visual. I have had most fun and joy creating and experimenting with photography and video. During my university years, I was actually making money through photography in the ad world. I was good at it but after a period of time, I realized there was something missing in the photography that I was creating. What was missing was meaning, deeper meaning.
I totally abandoned photography and film, decided to sell all my equipment (I was living on debt back then due to the simple reason that I was spending way too much on equipment – read GAS) and re-specialized myself into the field of user experience design. It has now been almost 4 years since I left that field and have over that time concentrated my photography on personal events (family, vacations etc).
However, now I feel like I can dive into more meaningful creative exploration through photography and film. My aim is to experiment and discover new ways of expressing myself through the very medium that I left untouched for the past years. To prevent any future occurrence of GAS, I am limiting myself to my Fuji X100F (fixed 35mm) and a GoPro. I will, therefore, have little to no upgrade possibilities, and the only way to improve my work will be through improving myself or the story being told. By experimenting, I am allowing myself to fail, to create potential rubbish, but at least I will be walking towards my true creative self.